I feel like one! Not because of my awakening from October 2023, but for another reason…
I often get what I can call hyper fixations over anything about Dietmar Schönherr (mainly him, sometimes Vivi Bach), but when they are not really hyper fixations because they lead me to answers on the connection that I have with him. This time, I got my hands on some articles from 2012 – 2014 from various German magazines talking about their last years on this planet. That is not what caught my eye or the selfless behavior that Dietmar had for both his wives (Ellen (ex-wife, 14 years together) and Vivi (wife, almost for 50 years toegther)), but the fact that they would of had up to three children. Earlier this week, I wrote a forum post and I quote here:
I was guided to read (via Google Lens and Translate) articles about the time Vivi Bach and Dietmar Schönherr’s death (2013 & 2014) for a reason. That reason is learn that 1) wow, they really loved each other! but what’s more important is that 2) Vivi had three miscarriages in her lifetime. From what I read about what our souls do before our births that our souls choose parents before they make the contract with them. Which got me feeling, “oh, why is that? and who those souls are?” Clearly it was “too early” for their children to be physically alive in the 1970’s and on for humanity. Not too mention how much pressure that would be on anyone within the Schönherr family because the duo’s fame at that time. A bit earlier in this month, I felt a more of a fatherly energy from Dietmar rather than a unclely one. I quickly pieced the two pieces together and at this moment in time, both Vivi and Dietmar are my spiritual parents and my ex-co-worker who I was in sync always is the younger bother of the family. We also have a middle bother that seemly to live in Costa Rica and was able to experience the efforts of Pan y Arte.
When I asked about my spiritual age, I was told that I’m around 10 to 12 Earth years young. Oddly enough, when I calculate my spiritual age based if I live to 300 and scaled to our expected lifespan of 120, I get 13.6 years (34/300 * 120). If scaled to 100, it’s 11.3 years. And while I think my awakening was in October 2023, that’s when I noticed it! I really started to awaken 13 years ago, in 2012. I do know that spiritual growth is more an exponential curve than a linear. Something that I will write about another day.
Going back to the tile of this post Phoenix Reborn, this does feel like a rebirth of a new me with a pair of “new parents”. I truly am thankful for this as I have the spiritual parental support that I don’t have with my biological parents.
EDIT TO ADD: I was guided to do a guided mediation on this:
EDIT TO ADD #2: The logic and the math might be totally wrong but that’s how I feel it as. Coincidentally, Dietmar’s spiritual age is 39.2 (98/300 120) (at the time of writing) and that’s what I feel everytime I ask his age from his photo on the front cover of his LP Du und Ich*. Again, the logic or the math might not make sense but it feels right. ¯ \ (ツ) / ¯
Also, coincidentally, that’s when Vivi and Dietmar married and around his age of 39-40, they would of had their first child.
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